Monday, 19 March 2012

  • An Open Letter To The Citizen's Of Nevada, MO

    Now we have a highway running through our town.  As I think most towns might anymore.  We however are a very small town.  Rural really.  The speed limit is 30 but I’m sure as everyone knows that most people do not abide by that especially when they’re just passing through and often go 40 or over.  Now that wouldn’t be such a problem if it weren’t for the fact that everyone in this town is a dumb ass.  Yes.  All of you.  Well… all of you with children.  I understand that when you were young you could ride your damn ass bike all over the place.  Things. Have. Changed.  Why in the hell are you letting your kid ride a bike AT NIGHT across a fucking highway?  Why is he allowed to ride across the highway at ALL!?  I see this ALL the time!  I can’t tell you how maddened I am by it!  Its not the childrens fault since they’re often too young to know better.  I’ve seen children who couldn’t be more than 6 playing by the highway on a bike with no one else in sight.  WONDERFUL way to get kidnapped.  God I hate this town.

Monday, 12 March 2012

  • Annnnnnd I did another :|

    I am a male.
    I am a girl. 
    I am shorter than 5’4.
    I think I’m ugly 
    I have scars.
    I tan easily. 
    I wish my hair was a different color.
    I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
    I have a tattoo.
    I am self-conscious about my appearance.
    I have/I’ve had braces.
    I wear glasses.
    I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
    I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
    I have more than 2 piercings.
    I have piercing in places besides my ears.
    I have freckles.
    I’ve sworn at my parents.
    I’ve run away from home.
    I’ve been kicked out of the house.
    I have a sibling less than six year old.
    I want to have kids someday. 
    I’ve lost a child.
    I’m in school.
    I have a job. 
    I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
    I almost always do/did my homework.
    I’ve missed a week or more of school. 
    I failed more than 1 class last year.
    I’ve stolen something from my job. 
    I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
    Disney movies still make me cry.
    I’ve peed from laughing. 
    I’ve snorted while laughing
    I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
    I’ve glued my hand to something. 
    I’ve had my pants rip in public.
    I was born with a disease/impairment.
    I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
    I’ve broken a bone.
    I’ve had my tonsils removed.
    I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
    I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. 
    I had a serious surgery.
    I’ve had chicken pox.
    I’ve had measles.
    I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
    I’ve been on a plane.
    I’ve been to Canada
    I’ve been to Mexico
    I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
    I’ve been to Japan.
    I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
    I’ve been to Europe.
    I’ve been to Africa.
    I’ve gotten lost in my city.
    I’ve seen a shooting star.
    I’ve wished on a shooting star.
    I’ve seen a meteor shower.
    I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
    I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
    I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
    I’ve been to a casino.
    I’ve been skydiving.
    I’ve gone skinny dipping. 
    I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. 
    I’ve crashed a car.
    I’ve been skiing.
    I’ve been in a play.
    I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
    I’ve seen the Northern lights.
    I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
    I’ve played chicken fight.
    I’ve played a prank on someone.
    I’ve ridden in a taxi.
    I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
    I’ve eaten sushi.
    I’ve been snowboarding.
    I’m single.
    I’m in a relationship.
    I’m engaged.
    I’m married.
    I’ve gone on a blind date.
    I’ve been the dumped one more than the dumper.
    I miss someone right now.
    I have a fear of abandonment.
    I’ve gotten divorced.
    I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
    I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
    I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
    I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
    I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
    I am a cuddler.
    I’ve been kissed in the rain.
    I’ve hugged a stranger. 
    I have kissed a stranger.
    I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
    I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
    I have lied to my parents about where I am.
    I am keeping a secret from the world.
    I’ve cheated while playing a game. 
    I’ve cheated on a test. 
    I’ve run a red light.
    I’ve been suspended from school.
    I’ve witnessed a crime.
    I’ve been arrested. 
    I’ve consumed alcohol.
    I regularly drink.
    I’ve passed out from drinking.
    I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
    I’ve smoked weed.
    I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
    I’ve eaten shrooms.
    I’ve popped E.
    I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
    I’ve done hard drugs.
    I have cough drops when I’m not sick
    I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
    I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
    I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
    I shut others out when I’m depressed.
    I have taken anti-depressants.
    I have been anorexic or bulimic.
    I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
    I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 
    I’ve woken up crying.
    I’m afraid of dying.
    I hate funerals.
    I’ve seen someone dying.
    I own over 5 rap CDs
    I own an iPod or MP3 player.
    I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. 
    I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
    I own something from Hot Topic.
    I own something from Pac Sun. 
    I collect comic books.

  • I can't believe I did one of these...

     

    • I’m loud.
    • I’m sarcastic.
    • I cry easily. 
    • I have a bad temper.
    • I’m easy to get along with.
    • I have more enemies than friends.
    • I’ve smoked.
    • I drink coffee.
    • I clean my room daily.

    My appearance:

    • I wear makeup.
    • I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
    • I wear contacts. 
    • I wear glasses.
    • I have braces.
    • I (want) to change my hair color often.
    • I have a piercing.
    • I have small feet.

    Friendships:

    • I have a best friend. 
    • I have at least ten REAL friends. 
    • I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
    • I’ve beaten up a friend.
    • I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
    • I can trust at least five people with my life.

    Experiences:

    • I’ve been on a plane.
    • I’ve taken a taxi.
    • I’ve taken a city bus.
    • I’ve taken a school bus.
    • I’ve made a speech.
    • I’ve been in some sort of club.
    • I’ve won an award.
    • I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

    Music:

    • I listen to R&B.
    • I listen to pop.
    • I listen to techno.
    • I listen to rock. 
    • I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
    • I download music.
    • I buy CD’s.

    Television:

    • I spend at least six hours a day watching television.  
    • I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
    • I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
    • I’ve seen and liked America’s Next Top Model.

    Family Life:

    • I get along with both of my parents.
    • My biological parents are still together. 
    • I have at least one brother.
    • I have at least one sister.
    • I’ve been kicked out of the house.
    • I’ve ran away from my home.
    • I’ve sworn at my parents.  
    • I’ve made my parents cry.
    • I’ve lied to my parents.
    • I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
    • I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
    • I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

    Hair:

    • I’ve been brown 
    • I’ve had streaks.
    • I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
    • I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
    • I’ve been blonde.
    • I've been black.
    • I’ve been red.
    • I’ve been light brown.
    • I use conditioner.
    • I’ve curled my hair.
    • I’ve straightened my hair. 

Wednesday, 29 February 2012

  • The Fault In Our Stars

    The most horrifying part of The Fault In Our Stars isn’t how it ended.  When you begin reading it you know how its going to end.  You aren’t sure who but you have a good idea and no matter which it is its one of them.  You don’t know when but it will happen.  

    The most horrifying and tragic part of The Fault In Our Stars comes after the book is finished.  In the acknowledgements.  These lines are tragic. 

    “For example, there is no such thing as Phalanxifor.  I made it up, because I would like for it to exist.”

    And as equally tragic.

    “who shared their time and expertise with me on medical matters, which I cheerfully ignored when it suited my whims.”

    Here is a man without the means to cure cancer.  Or the means to prolong a life.  But in a book has created something he would like to exist.  Because of what it would mean if it did.  And since he doesn’t have the ability to create it in this world he created it in the characters world.  In Hazel Grace’s world.  Because he wants it to exist and he can’t change that it doesn’t.  Because if you’ve read the book and you know that Phalanxifor does then you know there isn’t anything else like it.  But there should be.  But so far there isn’t.  

    That just struck me as particularly tragic.

Thursday, 23 February 2012

  • Acne: My Absolute Nightmare

    At the beginning of 2012 my skin decided to greet me with the worst acne I've ever had in my life.  At the age of 21.  I broke out all over seemingly overnight.  Cheeks, upper lip, chin, forehead, and nose.  And it wasn't just horrible to look it, it was painful.  My whole face was red and painful to touch.  Now I hadn't done anything differently.  Hadn't switched soap, detergent, wash clothes, makeup, brushes, or face product.  Not even shampoo or conditioner was changed.  Two weeks ago after mildly treating it and seeing no improvement I decided to step it up a notch.  I ordered X Out by Proactiv.  Big mistake.  Not only did it not help my acne it actually made it worse.  Now every inch of my face was covered.  I gave it a full week and after nothing but more heart ache I ditched it.  

    Now in the past I have seen a dermatologist.  Even with my light acne they've never been able to help and I've always went back to something over the counter.  So this time I decided to just skip the expensive visit all together and fight this myself full force.  

    I have very sensitive skin and I'm always weary of trying anything with 10% benzoyl peroxide but the time for games was over.  I went out and bought Oxy face wash, a Clean and Clear marks kit, and a Clean and Clear spot treatment.  Everything contained 10% benzoyl peroxide.  I started using it as soon as I got home.  Oxy face wash twice a day and the Clean and Clear spot treatment three times a day.  Instant results.  The next day I was 30% of my acne had been blasted away overnight.  One more day of that before I moved over to the Clean and Clear marks kit so my acne wouldn't leave any discoloration on my face as it has in the past.  I will say that the face wash in the kit is much more drying than the Oxy wash and has left me with red dry patches of skin on my chin but as of now I'm about 95% acne free and the red dry patches will clear up in time and can be covered with a tinted moisturizer until that happens.  

    All in all this has been a nightmare and I hate my skin almost as much as I hate my body but after nearly two months I feel like its finally about to be over!